*Thump…thump…thump…thump. It was getting louder and louder the heavy thump on the door. If Rhage thinks I’m getting up and answering the door he was out of his fucking mi- my thoughts gets cut off when I hear a loud smash* The fuck?! *Jolting up from the bathroom floor a lag bottle in my hand slowly I get up. Staggering out of the bathroom I see shit…the whole brotherhood in the pit. The door was busted open just like Rhage predicted Wrath would do. Blinking I run a hand over my face feeling the scratchy stubble on my chin* The hell man?! *Wrath just stands there…they all do looking at me [Brother…] I swallow and my head turns to the door as five doggens come in and start cleaning up the mess. I growl low watching Wrath’s eyebrow shoot up past his shades his voice deep. [Butch…calm down] My eyes fall off of Wrath when fritz comes over to me with a huge tray of food. He sets it down on the coffee table bowing and I grunt some sort of thank you. I look back at Wrath, watching him nod to Phury and Rhage. [There gonna help you get cleaned up, ok brother?] Narrowing my eyes I look at them all…what was I? A child? Growling I stumble feeling two strong hands on my arms. Sighing I let Hollywood and Phury lead me to the the bathroom. I hear Wrath say a few more words to the others then by the sound of shitkickers pounding then fading off into the distance, I knew that they had left. Rhage looks over at Phury [I got this brother why don’t you go pick out a nice suit for Butch] Phury nods and leaves the bathroom closing the door behind him. I hear the shower turn on knowing Rhage willed it on then feels his hands at my waist. Closing my eyes cause shit this was embarrassing. I didn’t feel like a kid anymore no, I felt like I was a eighty year old man. The other thing I kept thinking was shit if Vishous was here and saw Rhage taking off my boxer briefs he would go all bonded male and flip shit. Swallowing hard as I feel the fabric drop from my legs and I shiver as the cool air hits my naked body. Placing both my hands over my junk, cause shit even though Rhage was my brother he did not have to see my cock and balls. I peel open my eyes watching Rhage lean forward to feel the water with his fingertips. Then watches him open the glass shower door and pull me in with him. I watch as the water falls and soaks his clothes then he turns us so I’m getting hit with the water and fuck I groan….it felt good. I couldn’t tell you the last time I had a shower. That sounded really gross but come on….the last thing on my mind this past week was gotta stay clean, be a good boy and shower. No. Leaning back on the wall I go into some form of sleep. I do remember Rhage running the soap bar over me then yes…hissing as soap gets into my eyes. So he was washing my hair now. God help Mary, Rhage was so rough washing my hair, it was like I was a dog. Grumbling I shake my head flinging soap and water at him hearing a [Hey!] My lips twitch and I almost laugh at that. [Asshole…] The old Butch starts coming back as I part my lips and say* Speaking of that, could you wash mine? *Smirking I turn around so my ass is facing Rhage and I swear to the Scribe Virgin he squealed. The water immediately gets willed off and he smacks my back [That wasn’t funny! Out! Get out!] Stumbling out of the shower I feel his hand grab my arm again, then hisses as he roughly dries me off with……….shit no…..that was Vishous’s towel. My hazel eyes snap open wide and I start to shake and scream* Get it off of me!!! No…stop!!! I can’t smell it *I start to sob falling to the floor, Rhage grunting as he tries to pull me back up* I can smell him please…oh god no…*Great now I was crying again and I could hear Phury, meaning the door had to be open now. [Brother…Rhage what happened?] Rhage goes into the Old Language and I pick up a few words…Vishous…towel….scent…I hear Phury sigh and move to help Rhage get me off of the floor. They take me to bedroom…shit no I didn’t want to sit on the bed…I haven’t slept on the bed since…fuck you know. Sobbing I shake my head and I hear Phury [Rhage not the bed…not the bed] Rhage curses and answers back [Well where the fuck are we suppose to put him then!] I hear hushed voices then feels them pull me over to one of the leather clubs chairs in the bedroom. They sit me down and begin to dress me…well Phury was the only one doing it right. He pushes Rhage out of the way [Just go…go get his food, I got this true?] Rhage grumbles and I swear to god just like a little kid he stomps out of the bedroom into the living room to retrieve the tray of food. Opening my eyes I watch Phury, kneel and button up my shirt he whispers to me [Brother…I’m here ok? Were all here] Swallowing hard I nod to him trying to hold back anymore more tears that dare wish to fall. Phury looks at me with his sad yellow eyes. Christ I still couldn’t get over how good looking he was but how someone like that had such a horrible back story…or was an addict to drugs. Funny how the world worked, true? He slides on my shoes and laces them just as Rhage walks in with the food and damnit wasn’t that fucker chewing…he was eating my food. The old butch would of laughed his ass off but Christ this Butch didn’t care…let him eat the food I didn’t want it. Phury gets up and grabs the tray roughly from Rhage then smacks him over his head [You fucker! This is for Butch! Jeez you already had first meal] Rhage just mumbles with food in his mouth and I shake my head. Then I feel a hand on my leg, looking up I see Phury with a spoonful of something. [Butch…open up please…you need to eat] Ok now I felt like a child again, shaking my head I hear both of them sigh. [Butch please…you need to…you need to have strength my brother] I close my eyes tight then I hear something…..Vishous…..”Come on nallum…eat..” Gasping I open my eyes and looks around the room. Rhage and Phury just stand there looking at me with a confused look. Blinking rapidly I continue to look around* Vishous?…Baby? *I watch Rhage and Phury frown, feeling there hands on my arm…[No Butch…it’s just us…and you need to eat ok?] Looking down for a moment I nod slowly then lifts my head and opens my mouth. I feel Phury put whatever food…um…..mash potatoes and chicken in my mouth. Though to me it tasted like nothing…food was the last thing on my mind. After God knows how long of the two of them shoving food down my mouth and me force to swallow its finally all gone. Rubbing my eyes I stand still thinking about what the hell I heard, I mean I knew my males voice and that was definitely Vishous. Phury and Rhage look at each other than at me [Ah Butch…we have our meeting soon and Wrath wants you there brother…are you up for it] Looking up at my brothers I nod slowly* Ah…*Clearing my throat* Yeah…true *They walk ahead of me and I follow suite my eyes low…this just…didn’t feel right. Looking up I see doggens putting in a new door for the pit I grumble* Can’t believe you guys broke down the door…*Rhage grins some [I warned you, didn’t I] Shaking my head I just keep walking, felt weird to be out of the pit. I’ve been cooped up in there for a week and some…just couldn’t bring myself to leave…to go anywhere. Which I think the brothers were happy about that. Glad I didn’t go AWOL like Tohr. I understand completely what he was feeling. Even though he lost his mate to the fade and V is still alive, I know the emptiness he was feeling. Almost mechanically I walk through the tunnel, across the mosaic floor, and up the grand staircase to Wrath’s study. Seeing everyone look up at me…uh I hated eyes on me. Snorts…shit I sounded like z. Moving over to the couch that I normally sit on I stop mid walk…wait…I can’t sit there…me…me and V always sit there. I run my fingers over the arm of the couch then moves over to the fireplace next to z. he is the one brother I know wont bother the fuck out of me. I run my hand down my suit eyeing the door as…tohr walks in. He lifts his head to me and our eyes lock. He slowly bows his head to me and I bow mine back then he walks over to his spot by Wrath’s desk just as wrath clears his throat [Ok…listen up…] I totally block out anything wrath is saying…all sounded like blah to me. My eyes still focus on tohr I look over the brother thinking about back when he lost wellsie…then when we found him…and his recovery which still wasn’t over. I take a deep breath and my attention gets pulled from wrath as he calls me out [Butch….Butch…] I blink and look over* Huh? *He shoots an eyebrow over his shades and leans back giving George a pet on his head [I want you to take time off but I don’t want you cooped up in the pit, you feel me? You need to rebuild your strength from your accident and if you wish..you may move into the mansion for the time being….] I swallow hard looking down. The pit…was were I always was…it was my home…it was me and…me and vishous’s place. See that right there confirmed it…it was ours…and we werent..sighs…together at the moment. Slowly I nod then hears Wrath again [Tohr….you’ll help Butch right?] I look up at Tohr watching his eyes lock onto me and nod before speaking [Of course…my brother] I look away hearing Wrath talk about some other lesser bullshit then the meeting is over with. Moving past everyone till I get stopped [Hold up] Turning around I stop watching everyone leave then Tohr just standing there looking at me [Gonna ditch me now?] He smiles barely and I shrug* Lets go then *Moving out of the study I watch tohr passed me [Follow me] I move with him down the hallway looking down the balcony to see the other brothers leaving the mansion for the night. Shaking my head I watch tohr open a door and will on the lights [Here…ah your room…right next to mine ok?] Slowly I walk in and look around. Wrinkling my nose at the decor [I know its not your style but feel free to….make it home…true?] Nodding I turn my back to him* Mind if i have a moment to myself? *Running a hand through my hair and a minute of silence goes by then Tohr murmurs [Sure…] Feeling shitkickers moving forward verses backwards a palm clamps over my shoulder. I stiffen then hangs my head [Butch…brother…im here ok..and I know the others say they are and I know what the fuck is running through your mind…just…when I say I know…I know…don’t hesitate to talk to me even if it makes no sense or shit you wanna cry or feel pain…just something…whatever…im here…ok?] Slowly I nod feeling tears form in my eyes then the hand slips from my shoulder [Good…i’ll be in my room…come find me when your ready] I feel him leave then shut the door behind me. Swallowing hard I move to the bed and sits on the edge just staring at the door, tears running down my cheeks as I cry silently wondering if I even can…go on…but..tohr was living proof that…that I can…or at least try…and for right now he was the only one that can truly understand…how it feels…to lose your mate*
